Once upon a time
That time was a long time ago
I did not look the way I look now
I was small
Everyone is small that long back
They are young
Young ones are small, or smaller
That time I did not know that
What else I should have known?
Or could have known?
I did now know
What I was supposed to know
I did not know if I was supposed to know stuff
Was there some stuff important to know?
Perhaps I will get to know gradually
What was necessary to know?
What was not?
Were there important things at that time?
That were important to know
And was there stuff that would be required later on
If yes, then when?
A few days later
Few weeks, months or…
I was not qualified to figure all that
In the mean while
Time was passing as it always does
I used to be possessive about some useless things
Couple of unimportant activities
Like removing laces from everyone’s shoes
Putting the laces back on them
I had no idea if my time was being used well
Or it was being spent badly
I had no idea if my mind wanted to do something
Something other than playing with shoe laces
If my heart wanted things
But which things were those?
I had no idea if I could identify those things
That I might have wanted or needed
It was first time I was in that situation
There was no one to guide me
But I had no anger, frustration or sadness
I wasn’t happy either