Questions questions

As long as I was there

I was there.

I was there

You were there

But were you there?

You were there somewhere

But not there

I mean with me there

Yes physically we were there

In the same space together

Within two feet of each other

That felt like a light year far

You couldn’t break

The maze of your thoughts

Yes, you did look at me

Or was it through me

You remained focused

Perhaps on the infinity

Did you see infinity through me?

It felt strange

I shook myself, got up

And walked off

Even after a few paces

I felt whizzing inside my head

I stopped, waited and turned

You still gazed at a distance

Oddly enough you had a smile

Perhaps because I had gone a mile

Gem hunter

Let me look into your eyes

To get the comfort of drowning

Once again

In that deep blue, ocean

Or is it blue deep, ocean

Your flickering eye-lids

Getting confused

Finding my eyes so near

Inches away

My hungry eyes wish to dive in yours

Looking for valuable gems

I need those gems

Transparent gems of promises

Blue gems of love

Yellow gems of friendship

Maroon ones for passion

But my eyes got lost

In the maze of your confused eyes

Burning objects crisscrossed

Confusing me

What were those things?

Why did they not allow me in

Beyond that firewall

I couldn’t find any promise

Or passion

Even friendship

Alas there was no love to be found

I am not a gem collector

I am hungry for them

I need your eyes to say something

Give me a faint hint

A little hope if they could

Something like, “try next time”

Or, “of course it is possible”

“I can’t say it right now”

I feed on such flimsy lies

For the hunger of my heart

For the sake of my survival

For the sake of my sanity