“Today is the best day of my life!”
Everyone was surprised – happily
But strangely no one noticed it
They tried to find it on him
In fact he is never happy
He is also never sad
I guess that is not really normal
He is so ‘in between’,
Sadness and happiness
I don’t know what state is that?
But it seems it works for him
To be in that ‘in between’ state
But how does it matter to Gautam
Or to anyone else for that matter
Is it not a good thing to be happy?
Or is it bad to be sad?
But if you are sad and you can find ‘why’
Then you can work on it
To remove the problems making you sad
It is a good approach
Everyone should try to improve their lives
But… what if nothing is wrong at all?
That, I guess is a very impractical idea
No one has that kind of life
No one can get it
Anyone living, has problems
So if Gautam is in that ‘in between’ state
How does he benefit?
Everyone knows he had his share of troubles
Perhaps much bigger than many of us
Parents, wife, children
In his search for the truth
Search for himself
He is not trying to reclaim his glorious past
He is comfortable with what he has lost
And with what he has today
And also with the thought
That tomorrow there may be nothing
Out of all the nothingness that he owns today